Since childhood, I have always been the kind of kid who hid in the dark, quietly observing the world.

I still remember being locked in my room doing homework while the sound of a cinema echoed from thirty meters away. I would cry heartbreakingly over the stories I could not see, the worlds I could not enter. Perhaps that was when I first realized how deeply I longed to express myself — and to be heard.

I have experienced mental breakdowns and dropped out of school, and throughout my long years of teaching, I was often consumed by guilt and self-hatred. In 2023, I arrived in New Zealand carrying wounds I did not yet know how to heal. The loneliness of living between cultures, the constant negative voice inside me, and years of deeply rooted self-limitation made me believe I would always remain in the shadows.

But life never stopped pushing me forward.

In 2025, I completed my first full marathon. In 2026, my first picture book will be published.

I am someone who keeps searching for an outlet through painting, writing, music, and film.

If my story can accompany someone through even a small stretch of darkness, then that is the greatest meaning creation could ever give me.

 

 

      从小，我就是那个躲在黑暗里，悄悄观察世界的孩子。

          小时候，我常被锁在房间里写作业。三十米外电影院传来的轰鸣声，会让我因为错过了一场电影、一个故事，而哭得撕心裂肺。也许从那时起，我就知道——我渴望表达，也渴望被世界听见。

          我曾精神崩溃，也曾中途退学，在漫长的教学生涯里，一次次被自责和自我憎恶吞没。2023年，我带着满身伤痕来到新西兰。跨文化的孤独、内心持续不断的负面声音、那些根深蒂固的自我设限……我曾以为，自己会一直活在阴影里。

          但生命没有停止推着我向前。

          2025年，我完成了人生第一场全程马拉松；2026年，我的第一本绘本出版。

          我是一个不断用画笔、文字、音乐和影像，为自己寻找出口的人。

          如果我的故事，能在某个时刻陪你走过一小段黑暗，那就是创作对我最大的意义。